bellandedwardslullaby wrote:
Yhea, ok thanks for the reply. I was listening to it on Audiobook as I read it AGAIN last night. The Ethics chapter help me see where Bella was going with it BUT I still have issues with her when she tells Jacob, "I saw it, and want it BAD". UGG, no way. Sorry dont buy it. Bella was describing the "vision" when she was kissing him at the campsite and the Red flash of heat swept over her eyelids. It first gave me the impression there was some sort of imagery he was DOING to her or spell, but I dont think thats the case. It was just so "out of the blue" for me.
But Bella does well to explain herself that its not the same "cant live without you" love that she has for Edward. She does well to explain herself But I personaly think that shes not in love with Jacob. HE defines it that way for her and THEN she sees it that way. Its like telling someone their hungry but their not but after constant persuassion, "well maybe just a little". Bella is such an intellectual and to be attracted to Jacob, UGG, (even the MY Jacob side of him) it just doesent fit for me.

Oh well she picked Edward BUT just makes me uneasy.
It helped for me to revamp it with my audiobook but OH does it make me so Anxious! Yikes
I NEED MY BD!!!!
I'll be honest, the 1st time I read Eclipse and got to "that" scene I was a bit surprised, but perhaps not as much as most readers and I certainly feel I cut her quite a bit more slack than most. However, during my 2nd reading I saw the clues -- most definitely as early as the 1st kiss scene.
I think Bella was as equally surprised and appalled as most readers. Perhaps, I'm a bit more...forgiving?...because I have personally experienced both being a "Jacob" and a "Bella" and understand how, even with the best intentions, situations can get out of hand and people get hurt.
Bella was in denial about her feelings for Jacob for most of the book. It wasn't until she truly believed that he was in mortal danger that she could admit to herself the true nature and depth of her feelings for him. It wasn't *really* out of the blue, per say, but more the crisis moment was finally reached where honesty could no longer be denied.
Also, while I believe Bella loves Edward more, I don't believe her love for Jacob is a
lesser love -- more that B&E love is extraordinary. As stated in Ethics, if Edward had not been in their lives, Bella & Jacob *would* have been soul-mates.
"I could see what he saw, and I knew that he was right. If the world was the sane place it was supposed to be, Jacob and I would have been together. And we would have been happy. He was my sole mate in that world -- would have been my soul mate still if his claim had not been overshadowed by something stronger, something so strong that it could not exist in a rational world."
I think this relationship is *so* crucial to B&E's future. This is what it finally took for Bella to truly understand what she was giving up when she was giving up her mortality. Neither Edward's cautions or Rosalie's stories would have made her understand. She *finally* saw her alternative future -- and it was pretty darn good --- and she *still* chose Edward instead.