Natashanatasha wrote:
edwards_obsession wrote:
coldheart wrote:
Revamping Twilight and one more scene that really has me intrigued is during the video in Biology. I really, really wonder what is going through his head with all the electricity and sparks flying.
p231 I sighed in relief again when Mr Banner turned the lights on, finally glancing at Edward; he was looking at me, his eyes ambivalent.
What is he ambivalent about? WHAT on earth is going through his head here?
Since ambivalent means "having conflicted attitudes and feelings", I think Edward is uncertain whether what he is doing is right. By this point, he has decided that he will not kill her and has told her that he is breaking all the rules. But, when he feels the electricity during the movie, he wonders if he can really take the relationship any further. He has never felt anything like what he feels for Bella, and knowing how breakable she is, he is doubting himself. Just like he doubts himself through all 3 books. I can't wait to read this part to know
exactly what his thoughts are!
Me too! I know she calls it 'electricity' but I wonder what he would call it? Strangely, they never talk about it. Which leads me to believe that he thinks it's physical attraction too and back in Twilight he would never have let the physical side go very far for fear of hurting her. Maybe that's why they never talk about it. I so want to know what he is thinking!!
I wonder if part of the reason he doesn't talk about it is that he is scared of freaking her out. He has no way to know that she felt
the exact same thing, and knowing how much Edward doubts himself, he probably doesn't realize that Bella feels the intensity just as much as he does. Perhaps he is scared that if he mentions how it felt to
him, she will suddenly get overwhelmed with the situation and take off. He is always waiting for her to get scared and run anyway!

I think by this point he is so attached to her that the thought of scaring her away is very frightening to him, even though he always tells her she should run. He is extremely conflicted about doing the right thing versus doing what he wants. Maybe this was a subject he just couldn't bear to broach??